On Becoming a Mother

I was not ready for motherhood. It’s strange, as a child I always told myself I would be a good mother. I was convinced I had all the right qualities that would make me a good wife and mother (kind, caring, intentional, homey, good cook, loved education and learning), but at the same time, I was never one who lived to be a mom. I never daydreamed about my future life as a mom or what my kids would be like and I have never been a baby person and didn’t like babysitting. It was exhausting and I didn’t enjoy doing childish things.